Sometimes you have to step back from a situation, take in the full picture and then you can accurately evaluate where you stand.
That is pretty much where i am at. I spent the weekend not worrying about my weight, food or exercise. Instead, I tried to focus on what my goals are health/diet wise.
- Lose 184 or so pounds
- Stop smoking
- No caffeine
- No sugar
- No highly processed foods
- No sodas
To come up with these goals I had to take a real look at where I am starting from. Let’s face it, my being over weight and thusly not very active can all be attributed to a few addictions. Yes, I said addictions.
I realize that I am addicted to:
- Diet Coke (aspartame)
- Cigarettes (nicotine)
- Processed foods
No, they aren’t just cravings. Cravings can be satiated by a small indulgence and then you move on. Addictions to food works pretty much the same as other addictions. If you don’t get a certain thing you pretty much feel as if you will shrivel up, then explode and die. With the exceptions of a few drugs and alcohol withdrawals, I am fairly certain no one has actually exploded and died while purging things from their bodies/life.
In order to get to where I want to b e I have to rid my body and life of these things. Starting tomorrow I am going to detox for 10 full days. I will be drinking at least 1 gallon of water per day to help flush the toxins from my body. Additionally, I will not be eating any processed foods or sugars. I am also going to give up cigarettes.
I’ve heard, it is best to tackle one thing at a time. I also know that my best bet for success is being alone as much as possible while fighting off cravings. I am going to take the next 10 days and be completely miserable, but get it all out of my system. Rather than a week her and there over the next year.
Will it be hard? Yes. Will I be bitchy? Yes. Am I prepared? Yes.
I went shopping and only brought foods that are lean and healthy into the house. I have given all of my “extra” money to Chris to ensure that I won’t cave during a weak moment. I have bought 10 days worth of food and water. I have NOT bought cigarettes and have nicotine lozenges on hand in case of an emergency (i.e.I am on the verge of causing bodily harm or death for my husband and/or children).
I am ready to end this. I am tired of it being all that consumes me. I have spent the past 30+ years over weight and addicted to one thing or another. I want to worry about living, having fun and enjoying life.
I want to view food as fuel for my body, only.
I no longer want to live to eat.
Next up: Exercise revamp!